Am I normal?

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I feel utterly conflicted even writing this but need somewhere to get my thoughts down and maybe even hear I'm not alone.
Me and partner have been trying for a baby for about 9 months and found out a few days previously that I'm pregnant.
I thought I would be excited and over the moon. I've been waiting for those emotions to kick in but all I feel is sinking dread and panic.
How are we going to do this, how are we going to afford it? I spent all evening yesterday desperately trying to understand nursery fees!
I've even gotten to the point I wondered if it was right to keep the baby if I'm this anxious about it.
This isn't me and I want to be excited I just don't know how to!
Hoping maybe this is normal? Or that it isn't just me.

Yes, I think it’s normal. It’s a big thing takes time to get used to and hormones make you crazy.
congratulations

Very normal I assure you. It's such a big and life changing experience, having worries is only natural and instinctive. I was the same, even though our baby is very wanted also had a few wobbly moments of how are we going to manage? Etc.

Also, hormones play a huge role, they literally take your thoughts and emotions on a roller coaster so you just have to ride it out for a bit until it settles!
Luckily 9 months is a good long time to get used to it and organise things. Good luck OP everything will be OK.

Aw, yes, I was desperate for a baby but I felt exactly like you

Don't worry, I'm sure you'll start to feel happy and excited in no time.

It's a huge deal even if you really want it and plan it.

Absolutely normal. It’s an emotional time.
my life is sorted but I still think shit how are we going to do this? Will I love my baby? What if I mess it all up? How will I cope with the lack of sleep.

Yes, your hormones will already be going haywire.
Many of us go through the very same roller coaster of emotions

Totally normal it's okay, we planned our second very wanted child and it all went according to the plan and I still had a proper freak out when it was real.
I think it was mostly hormones but also the sudden swap from something that has been safely theoretical to very real and permanent. I was suddenly so worried that I was doing the wrong thing for my family and had all of these thoughts that I had made a mistake and was going to ruin everything
It calmed down after a few weeks iirc and I got to enjoy the rest of the pregnancy.