Trigger Warning: Neonatal Death and navigating new pregnancy

[Ella31]

Hi all, I'm 12 weeks away from having my baby, I'm not a first time mother per se but I'm a first timer in bringing a baby home My beautiful twin boys died last Christmas. One angel was born sleeping and his brother died at four days old when we had to let him go as he was so ill. I'm blessed to be pregnant again but it doesn't ever fill that missing piece of you. I love and miss my boys so much.

Just wanted to fill that context in so I don't come across like a complete idiot. Because I lost my sons at and after their birth. I have a load of brand new small mam bottles 160ml. Should I get a few of the next size up too. I feel awful silly asking but I've no idea how long my baby will stay on the 160 ones. Thanks so much for reading this. Would also appreciate any extra advice. It's so strange to be expecting your 3rd baby but never actually brought them home from hospital and have no idea if you'll even be a good mother. Definitely getting nervous now.

I am so sorry for the sad loss of your twin boys.

I didn't bottle feed so can't help with that but didn't want to read and run - you are going to be a wonderful mum. I wish you all the best.

So sorry. When I'm cremated i wish for my ashes to be spread where my first born's are, so he won't be alone.

You'll be a great mum, just trust your instincts.

No advice on the bottles but gentle congratulations on your pregnancy, I remember your posts. Not twins but I have similar experience in that my son was born very early two years ago and died just after a week and I am now 33 weeks - it's a nervous time isn't it. Wishing you all the best.

We didn't move on to the bigger bottles until baby was 5 months ot so, from memory (maybe it was a little sooner or later, but not newborn time).

I wish you all the best and much joy with this little one after such a difficult time.

So sorry for your losses and wishing you a healthy last trimester and safe delivery. You'll be fine with the 160ml bottles for quite a while so i wouldnt worry about buying any bigger ones just yet. Some babies can end up preferring different brands as well, so best not to buy too far ahead in case you need to swap (my DD2 has a high palate and preferred Nuk to Mam so all our Mam teats never got used).

I'm so sorry for the huge loss of your baby boys.

You may not need bigger bottles for a bit but maybe buy some faster teats (which come with bigger bottles so maybe do it as a package deal). My son moved the next teat size up rather quick, I think 8 weeks, but I know other babies that were on their initial teat longer

Wishing you and your new baby all the best