TW: history of MMC & chemical - positive test

[Jen6jen6]

Not sure where to start but we’ve got a history of MMC, a second miscarriage, chemical and one ds in between whose now 3. We’ve been trying for 2 years for a second child with only one chemical in that time. I’ve since been diagnosed with a unicornuate uterus. We had just finished all our tests to start ivf and would have been starting next cycle. On the off chance I took an easy @ home this morning and it was a faint positive. Went and got some first responses and took one this afternoon to see if that would be positive. I am 9dpo. (Weirdly I got positive tests at 9dpo when I was pregnant with my son).

What does everyone think? Is this looking positive or am I going crazy? I am so anxious about another chemical so really scared about line progression. I’m going for a progesterone and hcg blood test tomorrow to see what’s happening as I’ve also got a short luteal phase and have started taking progesterone pessaries just in case. Any other tips on how to manage the anxiety?

That’s definitely a positive. I completely understand your anxiety because of your history, but I guess in the moment you just have to take each day as it comes. For 9dpo that’s a really good line, so that’s a positive. You’re using the pessaries, getting your bloods done. So everything you can do you’ve done and you just have to ride this wave. You already know the importance of reducing stress. I find that giving myself a fixed period of time to feel stressed each day helps, so let’s say I allow myself 30 minutes of worry at 9am, I spend those 30 mins going through all the worries I’ve got and feeling all the stress. Then when the time is up I stop and get on with my day. During the day when something stresses me out or the anxious thoughts come back I stop and say “no. We’ll put a pin in this and pick it back up at 9am”. You may want two periods of stress time, one in the morning and one in the evening if that works for you.
I’ve accepted I’m an anxious person, I can’t just not stress, but this way feels like I’ve got a bit of control over it.
Good luck. I’ve got everything crossed that you’re another one of those couples you hear about who gets pregnant just before starting IVF!