Im a 38 year old single mum to a wonderful 6 year old. I have been seeing someone for 5 months, but I mean I wouldn't say it’s necessarily casual but it’s definitely not a full blown relationship. We speak every day, and I normally see him once a week. He has never met my daughter and she doesn’t know he exists. He is only 31 and has no kids of his own, we have spoke before about whether he wants kids, just in general obviously not with me as it’s only been 5 months, and he said yeah he thinks he would be a good dad but it’s just hasn’t happened and it’s not the end of his world if it doesn’t. Anyway this week my boobs are so sore and I keep needing the toilet so straight away I’m like uh oh. Not my first rodeo. I took an early detection pregnancy test this morning, one that can detect from 6 days before a missed period, I’m 8 days before today, so still very early but I couldn’t sleep because I was panicking about perhaps being pregnant so I just had to give it a go. I don’t know whether my eyes were playing tricks on me or not but I’m pretty sure I can see a faint line. I will do another one in two days to confirm. Then once I know for sure I’ll have to tell him. Now that is the scary thing, he is literally the loveliest man and I don’t want him to panic. I mean I wouldn’t need anything from him, I know I can do it alone like I currently do, financially and emotionally, yeah course I’d like him to stick around but if he doesn’t he doesn’t so that doesn’t scare me. I just think he is lovely and I don’t want to hurt him. I know it’s both our responsibility and all that but I can’t help but feel for him.