Reassurance scan tomorrow - terrified

[PeridotBunny]

I'm not sure of the point of this thread - I'm just spiralling and need to get this out, because I don't think DH can take any more of my obsessing.

I'm either 6 weeks 3 days or 6 weeks 6 days (my cycle length is shorter than 28 days so I'm not 100%)
I was originally booked for a reassurance scan on Saturday afternoon but the closer it's got, the more I'm panicking so I've booked one tomorrow morning.

I've had three miscarriages this year, so I'm so scared.
The first one was an MMC and I'm dreading going in and them giving me that look again, saying "I'm sorry" and then everything just falling apart.

I'm trying to keep positive!

Aww OP I couldn't read this and run. Sending you all the love. I had a miscarriage this year and the pain still follows me, so I feel for you. Sending you all the positive vibes for a successful scan.
Please update (if you feel able to) xxxx

Hi OP,

I had a MMC in November 2020 and the anxiety was unbearable when I got pregnant the next time. I think the main thing I could say is that your anxiety and panic is so valid. You’ve suffered trauma.

Wishing you so much positivity for your scan. ❤️
People always advise against going for repeated private scans - and I get that too, that it only tells you how things are in that moment but I also think if it gives you little milestones to work towards and gives some reassurance even if just for a little while it’s worth it.

sending love xx

Oh OP no advice but I was the same before my first scan! I’ve got absolutely everything crossed for you! Good luck! Xx

Sending a hand hold OP - I've had 3 MMCs and they are horrible. Just take a deep breath. Remember the ultrasound tech may take a minute in silence at the start of the scan whilst they check things and this doesn't mean anything is wrong. Fingers crossed for you that all goes well tomorrow xx

Best of luck OP. One mmc this year, I obviously would love to be pregnant again but I can only imagine how scary it'd be. I hope so much that you get the reassurance you've been hoping for x

Praying, fingers crossed, etc for you.
I understand the anxiety and there is nothing to ease it at all except time passing and a bundle in your arms.

Hth, pregnancy after loss is such a weird hard thing. If you have had repeated MC you might be able to get some reassurance scans through your EPU rather than paying out all the time (and having to go through the whole thing again in hospital if you get bad news). Maybe worth asking your midwife about. Remember 6w is still super early so no heartbeat doesn't mean all is lost. Hoping all goes well tomorrow!

Thank you everyone - your hand holds and positive thoughts meant a lot!
I've had the scan this morning and saw my tiny baby, with a beautiful strong heartbeat!

Aw what joyful news! Very happy for you :)