Crippled with anxiety!

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Good morning lovely mums!

I am writing this thread, after waking up from a nightmare early this morning about miscarriage!

I am normally very level headed, never suffered from mental health (even though my whole family is pretty much crippled with problems) I’m optimistic, happy and rational!I am 30 years old in a 10 year committed relationship, I have 2 children 8&7 who are a pain in my behind but I wouldn’t have them any other way! They both were easy births with no complications other than my youngest spend a few days in nicu due to breathing (they think he had fluid on his lungs). So no post trauma there, I did suffer a miscarriage 4 years ago, but I wasn’t really comfortable with being pregnant then, my life was all
over the place and where we were living wouldn’t at all have been suitable!

But now I’m 6 weeks, I’ve told no one, so have no one to talk to! However, I already feel consumed by anxiety! In the day I’m ok, the only worry I have is worrying if it’s right for my children because one of them will have to share a room again, but they have been asking for a sibling for over a year now 🙈 But in the evening it turns to worrying about miscarriage, worrying about dying of cervical cancer (waiting for regular smear results) or dying in childbirth and leaving my current children behind, I can see them in bed at night crying for mummy and both asking for books to be read and I can see dad trying, but he’s not cuddling my son how he likes to get to sleep, he’s not stroking my daughter hair to help her sleep, the house is a mess, this is what I can see sat trying to zone out and also what I’m dreaming about every night! I feel like I’m going insane! I feel consumed by these 2 worries, my brain and heart is in overdrive! I don’t know what to do, I can’t go on like this, I’m going to call the doctor this afternoon, but I’m looking for any similar experiences or anyone who has any tips to ease this! I haven’t googled anything as I don’t want to make myself feel worse!

at the rate this is going I feel like my only option is abortion which I really don’t want but I can’t do this for a full pregnancy, I’ll end up jumping off of a bridge, I can’t cope 🙇🏻‍♀️

You can call the Samaritans, they're 24/7 if you need someone to talk to.

There could be a physical reason for your anxiety, so it might be an idea to get a check up at the Dr.

Therapy might help. You can try Anxiety UK or BACP for a therapist.

Take multivitamins, magnesium and Vitamin D

What do you mean by physical? I’m going to give them a call this afternoon for an appointment as I know these ideas realistically are ridiculous, the likelyhood of dying in childbirth are probably as high as being hit by a car, but yet still venture outside without anxiety! Miscarriages happen and they can’t be managed, so there’s no point worrying about that either! It’s driving me mad because im a logical person, and these worries are anything but!

You might be low on vitamins or it could be a thyroid problem. Get some blood tests.

Please tell your midwife. Mine has a counsellor midwife who specialises in anxiety, they can help x

Sent you a PM. Hope it helps & hope that’s ok.

I do wonder if my iron on low, I have had a horrid metallic taste in my mouth for the past week and I had that with a previous pregnancy when my iron was low, but surly that wouldn’t effect my brain that much? I’m also very very tired all the time so maybe it’s all domino, I hadn’t really thought of physic attributes! Thank you x

My normally very positive and confident cousin suddenly had crippling anxiety while pregnant with her first. It lasted all pregnancy but went away once he was born. Panic attacks etc that she had never experienced before. I would flag all this immediately to your GP or HV, perhaps they can do blood tests to see if it’s something that needs treating, or prescribe you anti anxiety medication for throughout your pregnancy?