I'm not even 7 weeks yet and I don't know how much longer I have in me

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I feel weak and terrible for even complaining. I always wanted more babies. I'm not even 7 weeks and Im panicking. I can't do this for another 7 months. I feel like I've totally lost myself, I don't know who I am. Mentally, physically. My whole body has changed, and emotionally I'm the lowest I've ever felt. Im really struggling.

I've had an abortion before and it was awful, I said I would never do it again. But the fear of keeping my pregnancy for another 7 months sends me into a spiral. I've been nauseous from 4 weeks and it's so debilitating, it gets worse every day and ondancetron doesn't even help. Not to mention the fear of even taking that tablet before 12 weeks. I'm constantly dry heaving and nothing comes up. I'm STARVING.

I always thought of myself as a strong person but the minute I became pregnant I don't know where I am. I'm a shell. I don't even know what I'm looking for with this post.
Maybe some reassurance that others have felt this low and it's normal perhaps. It's so alienating and I'm worried. Any advice would be so helpful.

I would seriously suggest you need to speak to your GP or reach out to your midwife team. Pregnancy depression is real and you sound like you need some support. Please ask for help.

I had HG from weeks 6-14 and it was horrendous and abortion did cross my mind. It wasn’t until the 6th medication I tried I got the relief. If this med isn’t working on to the next one, keep trying. I specifically requested Xonvea and it’s been amazing.

The only way I got through was ‘minute by minute, hour by hour’ and by reminding myself that today is one day further to the end than yesterday.

Good luck

I found the first 10-13 weeks by far the worst. It would start to get better at 8 weeks ish and then be so much easier a month later.

Obviously this isn't the case for everyone, but I know very few people who felt awful all of the way through, and even then it was emotionally so much easier for them once they could feel the baby move.

Even in the pregnancy with painful major surgery in the second trimester, and in the pregnancy where PGP meant I could barely walk with crutches in the third trimester, the first was still the hardest, because it's horrible feeling ill and exhausted all the time, and it's so demoralising that it feels like there's a terribly long road ahead.

Keep going. Talk to your midwife. Daydream about your baby - think of names, look up adorable baby outfits, read a parenting book and decide how you'll parent them (even if you end up changing your mind). Make your screensaver a picture of an unborn baby at the stage yours is at - it's amazing how recognisably a baby they are. Going through it for a tiny human son or daughter is easier than trying to find the strength to endure it for something abstract.

I very much hope your pregnancy gets hugely easier, as mine did.

I’m 14 weeks and felt like this 7-11 weeks. I felt like dog shit, like I’d been hit by a truck, like I wanted to go to bed and never wake up. It was horrendous. It made me consider not keeping the pregnancy.

it does get better. Also there will be hours in between now and the official end where you will have a little break from feeling terrible. You will get through this xx

I had hg. Was awful

I wanted a baby for 10yrs

But I wouldn't do preg again now I have my mini blondes

Cyczline was good

I was sick - queasy - spitting all the lreg but literally as gave birth the taste in mouth went and no more sickness /nausea

Thank you so much everyone 🥹 this has all been so helpful and overwhelmingly kind.

It's still been pretty terrible and I see my midwife soon. I'll be calling GP today too.
I'm relieved I'm not the only one with similar thoughts and feelings.
I know Itll all be worth it, I've been wanting another baby for a while.
Hormones are wild, the control they have over you.

I'm trying cyclizine and prochlorperazine together today and hoping it helps.
I bake cakes for a living and I need the edge taken off at least to do that.
💕

You’re certainly not out there on your own. I’m 6+3 weeks today and have spent most of this week in bed. I got some cyclizine from the doctor on Monday but so far it’s not helping so I have messaged the surgery this morning to look at an alternative. The constant nausea really is debilitating to the point where I am also questioning if I can do it and how I will get through this. This is my first so I am thankful that I don’t have a little one relying on me - a big well done to those going through this with another child to look after. I think the dreaded thoughts for me is how bad will I get as I see most people say it can be worse from weeks 8 - 13. This week has felt long and painful, I feel like I’m wishing the days away. I haven’t been able to work this week and if I still feel like this next week, I might have to speak to my surgery about about being signed off for a couple of weeks. I just want the month of December to be done with which is sad as this month is always a great month for me in the lead up to Christmas. Hang in there and try focus on each day rather than the next which is what I keep reminding myself to do!

Bless you love, honestly it's rough! How are you feeling now? Sorry I just saw your reply today.

It's been ups and downs since I made my original plea. I've been given another anti sickness to try but it's not doing a huge deal. I really changed from day to day.
I've found just bawling my eyes out helps. Just to get it out. I was sat on the floor in a corner of big Tesco just 2 days ago crying, eating my pasta meal deal begging to not be sick in the middle of the shops. And I just had to do it.

A lot of the girls advice above has helped. Particularly making the baby more of a physical push towards something as she said it's hard when it doesn't even feel real yet.
You're not alone in the panic. I've learned to just take each day and cry. If you need to put the sick line in then do it. People don't understand sometimes. But what's best for you is what's important.

Ice water is my best friend and toasties so far.
Please don't hesitate to keep on chatting back and forth in here. Think we could both be doing with the hint of hope as each week progresses.

💕

A bit like you said, ups and downs. I also got another anti-sickness medication called Promethazine. I can’t say for sure if it’s working, I take it before bed but still wake up a few times through the night feeling nauseous. I make myself eat a biscuit when I wake up which is an awful routine to be in. I miss eating around 7pm and then not again until the next morning. At the moment, I’m eating earlier in the evening then having a snack around 8pm then having a small bowl of rice crispys before bed, not to mention the few biscuits through the night. I think what’s making me feel worse is the worry about how it will progress from week 7 - 14. I haven’t enjoyed a second of it so far. Hope your anti-sickness medication starts to work soon!

Don't feel bad for nibbling all through the night. It's a MUST. If I go to bed with an 'empty' belly I'll be up all night, I have been nibbling one plain hula hoops. And that's all I can stomach. The nausea lasts from the moment I wake up to all through the night. So 24/7 really I guess :(

Yes that's what I was given, I'm not seeing any difference.
I find myself spending all day thinking of what I could stomach but also not thinking or smelling food as best as I can. It's bizzare.

It's okay I haven't enjoyed a single thing, not even my huge boobs (always been a small cup) but they are like rocks.

My 8 week scan is on Thursday and it just makes you feel better knowing it's all for them and it's real and they're really there.

Have you had any pregnancies before or is this your very first experience? X

It sounds really debilitating for you, I do hope the anti-sickness tablets offer you some relief. I’m the same at the moment, finding no joy in eating but making sure I snack on bits every couple of hours or the nausea level ramps up.

Unexpectedly, I haven’t really had any other symptoms apart from the nausea and waking through the night and in the morning with a dry mouth. I’ve also noticed I’m not urinating as much through the night which is odd as I was always up at least twice a night before pregnant. No sore boobs either, not even any tingly feeling. I did read that the symptoms can mirror PMS so if you get sore boobs around the time of your period then you’re likely to experience it in early pregnancy.

I hope everything goes well with your scan on Thursday, I’m yet to hear about a booking appointment; I completed the referral form 2 weeks ago and still haven’t heard anything.

First time, it was a surprise so the shock still hasn’t sunk in (3 weeks later).

Morning,
Well I had my booking appointment today with midwife and she's told me to see EPA's about an injection called stemito I think it was. Meant to give instant relief. I would have powered through with trying more pills too ofc but my mental health has taken a huge dive so yeah I'm glad they're not messing about. Thank you 😊

Yes that's it, nibble all day. Did you manage to put a sick line in for work?
Yeah that's right it's very much like pms, I'd have described mines liked that then they slowly amp up. I knew I was pregnant immediately cause I was sooo emotional. But it's good it's not knocking you out and it's building gradually at least.

How are you feeling with your sleep pattern? You okay? It can be wobbly for the first few weeks/months. And don't feel bad if you have to nap all day, that's okay 💞

Ah see I had a scan at 6, now 8 and then 12 weeks. Only because of high risk. Previous miscarriages etc so that's the only reason I've been seen to rapid.

I booked mines almost a month ago and my phonecall appt was today so it does take a lil time :) but if you're worried don't hesitate to contact the midwife team x

It sounds like that might be an avenue worth exploring, anything to help you get through this early part. Let me know how you get on with that!

No I’m still powering through, my manager is super supportive and I will be mainly working from home for the next two weeks and then I have a week and a half booked off over the Christmas period. I will have to see how I am in January and take it from there as it’s likely I will need to let HR know if I am continuing to feel rubbish in January. Isn’t it funny how everyone’s symptoms are so different? The thing that made me wonder was around a week before I was due on I kept getting a tugging sharp pain in my lower right side which I’d never experienced in a lead up to a period.

I’m not experiencing tiredness as of yet but don’t like my new routine of cereal before bed, then a wake up at around 3.00am and 5.00am which is when I have a biscuit. How’s your sleep pattern been?

Glas to hear they’re seeing you every other week to monitor the progress. By the sounds of your symptoms, it sounds like your HCG levels are healthy and high.

As it goes, I also had a call from the midwife today, she had some questions and has booked me in for a face-to-face appointment next week. I was telling her about the nausea and she suggested the generic ginger biscuits, sea bands, crackers, etc - I was like yep, all those have been well and truly exhausted lol.

Morning love,
I'm so sorry it's taken me so long to get back to you.
It's been ROUGH!

I ended up on hospital for fluids (a lot) and the stemitil injection to speed things along. I'm due for some more tomorrow, the midwife has told me to go in again.

What are your updates? Is that you off for Christmas now? Any new symptoms.
I hope it's not gotten more intense for you.

I'm 10weeks today and at the peak of my hcg in pregnancy apparently so I'm hoping I'm over the worst.

Never doing it again lol , will be so glad to have baby in my arms. But he/she is so healthy:)

Here they are at 8 weeks and 4 days (couple weeks ago)

Oh my Gosh, sorry to hear that. It sounds like you’ve had a really tough couple of weeks. Hopefully you’re on your way out of it now, I read the hormones start to level out from around 10 - 12 weeks. Glad to hear the midwife and hospital have been responsive too!

Oh wow, that looks like a very healthy and happy baby, as sick as they make us! I had my first midwife appointment last week with a failed attempt at doing blood tests. In the end, I was directed to the hospital’s phlebotomy department the next day and they managed to do it with no issues. Needless to say, my arms are black and blue from the attempts!

Still struggling with the nausea, the midwife suggested I stop taking the medication in case it progesses and they have no effect? I said I wasn’t sure I wanted to risk it and end up feeling worse. I’m coming up to 9 weeks so probably still got a few more weeks of it (I absolutely pray this isn’t a 9 month thing). More symptom wise, I’ve noticed I’m getting a dull headache every day now. Not sure if that is from lack of fluid intake however, still finding it really difficult to eat and drink. It’s staying down but the taste and smell of everything repulses me at the minute. That’s one thing I hope doesn’t last the entire pregnancy!!! How about you, any new and wonderful symptoms?

I also got an appointment for my 12 week scan the second week in January so feeling quite anxious about that - I think it’s the unknown and not knowing what to expect. I finish work on Wedneday for a week and a half then working a few days between Christmas and the New Year from home so thankfully I’ll be able to rest. Christmas feels like a write off this year, pretty much cancelled all plans, we had a break away booked for a few days before Christmas - cancelled. Cancelled a Christmas meal out with friends and instead got my partner to drop off their presents. Also missed some fun work-related activities. But hey… that’s how it is. It’s getting hard to hide it as we haven’t told anyone yet. I’ve had a chest infection for the last few weeks which has had to be my excuse for not doing outings and events. How are you feeling about Christmas? Hope you have time to relax!

Oh god, you really are having your own time of it too. And let me tell you the bloods things when they can't get it... Oh dear it is both nauseating and frustrating. What are you like getting bloods done? I faint and he poked and prodded me for ages. I almost told him to stop.

Glad your getting all your check ups and things done too, January and this will be your first scan?
I totally understand, I've had early scans from 2 weeks of knowing and it's been a blessing for the anxiety but for yourself I can imagine it's heightened that feeling of "are you even in there" lol 😂 I do that and I KNOW they're in there.

Really? They can't try you on others even if that does happen? I think you're on the same as me and I must admit, it does wear off (from my experience). So I'm calling EPA's tomorrow to ask for another injection as it's slowing creeping back up on me.

Oh so still working, hats off to you. All I've done is cry while making cakes (cake business) and I don't have to deal with a 9-5 or people 😆 you strong!!

Yep that's what I said, Christmas is gonna be a pure blur this year, let's just get through it. We only announced the other day and that was cause I just couldn't hide it anymore. Im as pale as a ghost 😂 they knew something was up.

Has this put you off any more would you say? Be interesting to get to know people's feelings on it.
I'm having no more after this little one x

I know, very frustrating. I haven’t really had to have many blood tests in the past but I do remember about 7 years ago the nurse at the surgery really struggled to get blood and also left my arms a mess. I think phlebotomy are probably better placed to be doing the tests so next time I need to have some I am going to request to have them done at the hospital rather than the stress of the midwife not being able to manage it.

Yes, first scan. I’ve also been sent an appointment for February and April at the hospital which isn’t really clear as to what they are for from the letter they sent. It’s good to hear they have been scanning you from an early stage. The last thing you want when feeing so rubbish is the added anxiety.

I honestly don’t think they have done much at all. I’m sort of in a weird situation at the moment where I’m just getting through each day and holding off contacting them until the point where I’m starting to be sick.

I know, I’m glad to be done now for a week and a half. Time to just relax and do nothing! 😂 Oh wow, how are you coping being around baking smells? I’m finding I absolutely hate the smell of everything at the moment, including washing powder!

Oh it’s so hard isn’t it, thankfully I’ve managed to avoid most people so no chance of anyone guessing from physical appearance.

Oh definitely, I can’t tell you how many times I’ve said to my partner ‘I’m never putting myself through this again’. He’s really had to put up with me constantly complaining for about 5 weeks now! 😂