Numbness at positive test?

[Nothappynotsad]

Does anyone get my feelings? I have had an awful HG pregnancy, a few losses and a TMFR.

I really want another baby but I don’t want the stresses of being pregnant and second guessing how sick I going to be, if it’s going to progress if they will be disabled etc.

I don’t feel happy or sad I’m just scared? I got a faint line positive and I just feel numb?

I think that's totally normal to feel like that. I didn't feel remotely pleased or excited until the baby was born, and even then it's a newborn (urgh!) 18 months old is when I finally see the light.

Yes I completely get you, I’m not a fan of new borns, I want someone to hand to me a toddler who is genetically mine. Get all the next 18months fast tracked. I just feel so guilty….i didn’t feel this way with my eldest but I guess I didn’t have all the trauma baggage either

You've had such a hard time of it, it's no wonder a positive test isn't the joyous news it is for some people who have had an easier road. But you've kept going, so a desire for a child is strong - I think you have to take it a day at a time for now. (I've also experienced losses but it did work out in the end - and I'm sure it will for you too)

I’m so sorry your experiences have led you to this place, OP. You don’t ‘have’ to feel anything specific at all, whatever you feel is OK, especially right after a test.

Thanks, you are right take it one day at a time, and breathe!

I just feel guilty as I was so excited with my DC and I just don’t feel the same this time.

I have actually thought it might be easier to miscarry again it get it over and done with and close this chapter. Which sounds awful as I was so upset last time.

Meh, I despise pregnancy. It's just something you have to endure in order to get children. I see it like doing a job I hate in order to get food. Once I get to eat the food I'm delighted!

OMG this is so right! It’s such a chore and worrying time but the end product (child not a new born 😂) is amazing. I will always feel like a part of my family is missing if we don’t have this child. But pregnancy is soooooo bloody long!