Termination

[natasha39]

Planned pregnancy , 14+5 days partner left me 9 days ago my heads a mess I never want to terminate a baby I wanted and planned but I'm so scared to do it alone again and heartbroken I don't no what the hell im doing I book one for today I went and I just couldn't do it , the whole process explained to me was horrific , I don't no what the hell im thinking or doing

So sorry to read this. Any possibility of getting back together? Have you got support around you?
I think you need to be in a clear headspace before you make such a big decision...which I appreciate must be so difficult at the moment! Sending you love x

I don't have any support other than my midwife and my 18 year old daughter , he keeps saying no I'm utterly heartbroken

Hey OP. I had similar thoughts when I first got pregnant out of pure fear even though we'd been trying for 4 years?! I couldn't even believe what I was thinking considering I've wanted this so bad for so long. I'm 24 weeks now and I could've never ever forgave myself if I made a quick decision in the beginning and went through with it. Even if DP left me now id still have this baby..I am just utterly besotted and baby boy is the best thing that's ever happened to me in hindsight. I had weekly scans from 7 weeks which may contribute to this as I've watched him grow and wave his little arms and legs around a lot more than most do. Please please please give it time to think through. Sorry it's ended with your DP too..I can imagine your all over the place atm. Sending love

It's so hard I no that if he hadn't left it wouldn't have crossed my mind at all , I feel like I'm putting pressure on my two children to have to help me thru this , I think I'm scared of starting again at 39 alone again and the loneliness

Sorry to read this OP. Is it possible your ex will still coparent with you? x