Iv been on the pill on and off since I was 13 years old only time been off when we were starting our family. Last year I got pregnant was religiously taking my pill. (We have 3 kids, 2 have autism one of which is quite severely disabled he has language delay and other conditions as well.) I was going to continue with the pregnancy last year but I miscarried at 18 nearly 19 weeks, I had to deliver him myself and he got stuck. It was so horrific to go through. I have found out I am pregnant again, Iv tried so many different contraception over the last 5 years due to having issues with the pill. Iv been on the implant made me extremely unemotional which was effecting my parenting so had it removed, so then I got the copper coil, it made me extremely unwell my body rejected it and had to be removed (bleed for most of a year and the back pain was horrific turns out I’m allergic to copper..) so tried mini pill did the same as the implant was emotionally dead. So now they put me back onto the pill I have always been on last year, got pregnant 2 times now and I am absolutely terrified. I have so much on with my kids that are here already, and I am so scared to loose a baby at that stage again. Trying to convince hubby to have snip. Dr said this can happen sometimes when been on pill for so long, they can stop being as effective. I am so lost on what to do. I don’t think I can go through with an abortion and I don’t think I’d cope if I loose the baby but I also don’t know how I’d cope with another child due to my situation with my youngest in particular. He has to use a disability buggy for his safety and I don’t know how I’d manage to push him and have a new baby at the same time. I am so lost and scared right now I can’t loose another one at that stage. I’m 37 so now classed as geriatric pregnancy