Hello everyone,
I am 22 weeks and 4 days and I don't know how I will get through this pregnancy. I will start by saying I have an amazing support system and so much in place for my mental health but despite this, I am finding this so tough.
I lost my firstborn at 33 weeks to an incredibly rare condition that my baby had (7th case in the world) and my perception of risk has broken. I went on to have my daughter a year later. I am now pregnant with my third and struggling with so many fears. I can't handle the loss of another baby.
Everything so far has been as it should be but I don't take comfort from this. My current fear is my waters breaking without me knowing and it's a constant battle in my head.
Today I went for a walk and (tmi alert) when I checked my underwear there was a wet patch from my vagina, all the way up my butt crack. Most people would go "that's sweat" and my brain goes "that's my waters gone". I called the maternity line and they said to put a pad in and check to see if I soak through.
I guess I just need to hear some wise words from other mums out there. Does this sounds like anything to be concerned about? Any words that got you through pregnancy after loss?
I feel defeated and scared