I'm 36 weeks preg with my 2nd baby & have been feeling severely down the last few months especially. It comes in waves, some good days but mostly bad black dog days as I call them - severe anxiety, & I had a panic attack last week, which lasted about 20mins I felt like I couldn't get a breath & my body was covered in sweat and I couldn't control my crying. It was horrible.
I'm terrified that I'm going to go through Pnd after my baby is born. I went through bad anxiety during my 1st pregnancy but nothing like what I'm experiencing now. Then about 5 months after my 1st child the, the postnatal depression just hit me.
I am currently on 50mg of sertraline once a day, and I really want to contact my GP & possibly suggest about increasing. I can never get speaking to a doctor. Our doctors only do telephone appointments, then decide if they need to book you in to see you. The GP phone line is always full every morning so always told to phone back again in the afternoon, which I do - then the same scenario happens again so then I'm told the calls are full & to phone back the following day.
I've lost complete faith in doctors about this. It's not like it's the easiest thing to phone up about. Tbh I've just had enough I feel like what's the point in trying anymore in asking for help.
I had my 35 week scan over a week ago at the hospital & asked to have the prenatal mental health midwife contact me - I'm still waiting for them to get in touch. I spoke with them at the start of my pregnancy due to my anxiety issues in my previous pregnancy, (so the midwives are aware of these issues) and she did encourage me to contact them again if I needed to talk or offload about things, which I have done during my last scan.
I feel so let down and I feel like I can't ask for help, like I'm just expected to just carry on the way I'm feeling. I can't carry these feelings anymore - if it wasn't for my child & my baby I don't think I could carry on feeling this way anymore. I have my mum & my husband to talk to about what's going on, which I'm grateful for - I just feel like a burden to them. I feel like the person I am now isn't me and I can't remember who I am.anymore.
I know I haven't asked any specific questions on what to do - but i only wonder if anyone has experienced or is going through anything similar to this? 😢