Feeling insane during my third trimester?

[Jadeleigh196]

Really really struggling at the minute. 33 weeks pregnant and I've been hit with the most intense feelings of rage and tearfulness for around a month now. I'm raising my voice at my 3 year old most days. Today I completely lost it and screamed at my partner in front of my dd. I know I am scaring her.

I feel so ashamed and guilty and I'm really worried I'm going to cause irreversible damage to my dd by having her around me when I'm so volatile. I just feel so exhausted, emotional and fed up. I have antidepressants prescribed from the GP but haven't started taking them yet as I am high risk for PND and want to try and ward it off.

Has anyone been in a similar situation and can make me feel a bit better? 😵‍💫Would be interested to know how your toddlers reacted to an impending new sibling too as she has become very clingy and angry at specifically me, which may be down to my poor patience or perhaps it's the pregnancy?

Pregnancy and postpartum rage is definitely a thing. It's not something I experienced but in my journey of postpartum mental illness I came across so many women that did. You are not alone x
What support do you have with your mental health at the moment? Do you think it would be worth starting the medication?

Kindly, if the GP didn't think you'd need antidepressants they wouldn't have prescribed them. What worries you about taking them? x

Thanks for your replies both. I think I've just been putting off taking them because I know they make me feel a bit robotic and disinterested. But that is better than this. My little girl said "I've ruined mummy's life" today after she saw me get upset. Of course I don't think that. I have never said anything like that to her or in earshot but it's absolutely broken my heart that she feels responsible for my terrible outburst.

That's given me the kick up the arse to start taking them tonight x