Some of you will know I had a really hard time when I was pregnant with my DS now 20 months old with hyperemesis and then he was prem (induced early) and then the epidural failed (stopped me being able to move but didnt take the pain away) etc etc - A LOT of us have had these experiences I know. Anyway now we want to try for another baby so today (at my DH's insistence) we spoke to the Head of Midwifery. We got in really quickly and to see her because my DH works at the same hospital.
She was great and we talked about everything in detail - then she recommended I talk to the Head Obstetrician (sorry for my appaling spelling I am lazy) and she managed to get me to see him then and there. He was really nice and interested in my last birth and pregnancy etc and said they must have let me down last time because there were obvious things that went wrong that were avoidable. He told me he only sees a case as bad as mine about once a year not sure if thats good or bad!
Anyway he would like to deal with the next pregnancy etc personally and he thinks they can get things right this time.
The weird thing is - he told me (through looking at my notes and doing some deducing) that my DS WAS a twin but that I lost the other baby before I had a scan at 13 weeks. He said he suspected if we had had a scan at 8 weeks we would have seen two babies. So next time he is scanning me HIMSELF at 8 weeks pregnant in case its multiples again.
he also said if I am not pregnant in 6 months to go back to him since it took 4 years to fall pregnant with DS.
My head is spinning! I feel so much hope for the first time in ages but also feel sad that I may have lost a little baby and I guess we will never know for sure.
Phew thanks for listening I just needed to air all that with people who are interested! well done if you got this far. Thoughts please?