Pregnant & at a loss

[Jesslouisep]

As above, I’m pregnant. It’s not entirely planned, we had discussed it & my partner is or was way more keen than me. We didn’t start trying yet, properly.
I have children already & I thought I was done.
I love my partner & he loves me, he’s great with my kids.
however, 3 weeks ago I took a test and straight away the lines came up.
I honestly and truthfully don’t think I’ve got my head around it yet, I’ve not told my partner. I don’t even know how to which seems ridiculous, I’ve got in my own head about it.
I just know children change relationships and selfishly I love what we have now.
it’s almost as though once I tell him it’s suddenly very real. I go back and forth if I think I can have this baby, one minute I’m excited then I just don’t know! I know I have to tell him and the longer I leave it, the more pregnant I am. I’m probably 7/8 weeks. Sickness, exhaustion, sore boobs I’ve got the works. I’m thinking of just sitting him down & showing him a test, explain it’s okay if he doesn’t know how he feels cos I really don’t know myself.
I don’t really know the purpose of this post but I need an outlet cos up until now I’ve not told anyone.

Didn't want to read and run OP but your feelings are valid. My eldest DD was just 6 months old when I found out I was pregnant with my second. I was terrified and imagined how it would impact everything, financially (i was still on mat leave), our house was too small, our car was too small, and I didn't know how I'd manage or if I wanted the change. Fast forward to now, it's the best thing I did and we made it work. The fact you feel some excitement is a good sign because I didn't have any at all, I was just full of fear! When she arrived it was the best thing ever, and now I couldn't imagine life without her. I like to say 'she was always part of the plan, she just came early'

You should tell your partner to share the load, a problem shared is a problem halved. Good luck xx