Pregnancy after loss - approaching my loss gestation

[catmum7717]

Hi guys

I'm currently 9w6d pregnant. I sadly lost my last pregnancy to a missed miscarriage (picked up at 10w6d as I had an USS due to loss of symptoms, heart stopped approx 10w2d).

I'm really struggling with loss anxiety atm. I've taken a bit of time off work but am finding that I get anxious even doing a bit of housework, so I've really just been lying around the house in my pyjamas eating food. To be honest I'm exhausted and nauseous anyway so not like I'd be doing loads, but wondered how others coped around the time of their previous loss?
It doesn't help that I've had cramps and lower back ache all throughout this pregnancy so far and every time I phoned early pregnancy they say it's just normal, but it's terrifying me

Got my booking appointment tomorrow so planning on speaking to my midwife but just needed a vent really.

Would love to hear anyone's success stories

I am so sorry for your loss previously. Unfortunately, once you have experienced a loss, it's almost impossible to put it out of your mind.

I tried to change my thought process in that it was more likely to be a successful pregnancy at this stage rather than another failed one.

I cramped my way through the first 12 weeks and it felt so wrong to have the period type pains every day but it must have been my uterus stretching and my body adjusting to the changes.

You will start to feel more relaxed as time goes on. Especially so once you can feel movement.

I completely understand darling, I was the same as I MC in April at 7 weeks so waiting for that 7 weeks to pass when you find out you're pregnant at 3 weeks is TORTURE. I honestly just took it one day at a time. I'm currently 14 weeks and it is a lot easier although I still have dreams and sometimes have fears when I go to the bathroom that I'll see blood and it's really, really scary. All we can do is take each day as it comes my love, sending you a huge hug!