Hello,
I am 19 weeks pregnant and I have health anxiety. I lost my first child in the third trimester and I am so scared to go through a loss again.
Last night, I had a cuddle with my dog. She has been feeling a little left out as I have an 14 month at home and am expecting again. While cuddling her I noticed a sore on my dogs skin and rubbed it while showing my partner, picked out an eye booger and picked some dirt out of her fur - basically I was doing a good old grooming session with a doggy head massage also.
I remember thinking to myself "I have to wash my hands when my dog gets up" as she was on my lap. I then got distracted by TV and started to bite at a hang nail on my hand and some annoying skin on my finger (I know - I am a picker - its an anxious habit). Essentially I put my hand in my mouth and picked at a wound. It was only later where I realised my mistake!
In my head, my dog (who loves to roll in poo) was covered in potential cat poo and I have ingested it all. We don't own a cat and I can't confirm cat poo but my head goes to that place. I am so scared I have toxomoplasmis or some other parasite.
I spoke to my midwife who said not to worry, but fear it was more because there is no point in worrying - nothing can be done now!
I am angry at myself because I always wash my hands - I am amazing at it!!! I am paranoid about hand cleanliness and food cleanliness.
Any reassurence much appreciated! I know I made a mistake but just need some logical words sent my way
Thank you so so much in advance