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This is a tough one.
Just found out Im pregnant with my 3rd ( I have a 3 year old and a 10 months old), wasnt planned, quite the shock actually.Im also due (overdue ) a LLETZ procedure on my cervix due to abnormal cells. Nothing feels right about this right now. We potentially have the financial means to keep the baby but no family around to help and I’ve just returned to work few months back. Partner was excited about it but not so much now. I keep worrying about everything and making scenarios up on how I wont cope with 3 and feeling really down about it. Then… it’s the whole medical side of it as well. They wont do the procedure when pregnant so it’s a risk Id take to wait for another year and a bit to have it done and let these cells potentially develop into cancer. I did book a termination appointment to speak to a midwife have a scan and get the pills but Im not sure about it. It breaks my heart to let this baby go. I look at my other children and just think…I cant possibly go through with it :(.
I don't know if any mums have been in a similar situation . I guess I just wanted to let it out and get some reassurance that even if it’s very tough there is light at the end of the tunnel. Thanks for reading so far x