This will be my fourth pregnancy, I've only had one successful one and currently have a 3 year old. I am absolutely terrified. Terrified my mental health is going to decline, terrified I'm going to have a miscarriage again, terrified of the birth/recovery. I can't speak to anyone as my husband is at work and my best friend won't answer her phone. Need a hand hold. This baby will be so wanted but I'm just so scared.