I'm currently 11 weeks pregnant, not planned, but I know my cycle very well, know my fertile days each month and am usually very careful, but knew I wasn't being careful that month, so of course I knew there was a possibility of getting pregnant but didn't think it would really happen that quick as I'm 39! But thought it wouldn't be the end of the world if it did happen, I've been married for 20 years, financially stable etc.
Well all it took was that one time of being careless and now I'm 11 weeks pregnant and now that reality has hit i feel absolutely terrified about everything!
I'm worried about my depression and anxiety coming back, I'm worried about my back problems getting worse or causing problems during c-section (already had two), I'm worried about our family dynamics being changed for the worse! I have two amazing children, 11 and 7, and everything seems perfect at the moment, and now I worry about everything being turned upside down!
As well as all of this and a million other things to worry about, I am absolutely terrified that something is going to be wrong because of my age and all of the things that my baby is more at risk of because of my age.
Yes, I know I should have thought about all of this before, and should have been more careful but now the worries are coming thick and fast and I can't think of much else at the moment!
I have my first scan next week and I'm hoping that everything is OK and it puts my mind rest, but anyone can give me any positive experiences similar to mine please let me know!