Hi, please be kind.
Today my ex-partner is moving out of our family home. I’m 4 months pregnant and have two children aged 2 and 4. I am devastated. I know it’s for best, he has not treated us the way we deserve and I’ve tried for years to make it better and I just can’t. It doesn’t stop me feeling so awful though.
I can’t believe this is my life. That I’m in this situation where I bring three children into the world with separated parents. Where I go through these pregnancies and babies alone or previously with a shit partner who stresses me out. He’s much better now and is very hands on. He hasn’t explained properly to kids and I am in bits thinking about it. They adore him and how how HOW do I tell them daddy won’t live here anymore. I feel broken, like I’ll never be okay again and I’ll never find a way out of this. I feel like they’d be better off with me gone and him here, they probably like him more than me at the moment.
There are money and debt issues too. Not to mention my car won’t fit three car seats. I feel like a spectacular failure. I tried speaking to my mum but she doesn’t get it. Someone just offer some kind words or something because I am feeling so hopeless right now.