Pregnancy turning me into the most miserable person on earth

[Pupsandturtles]

Anyone else??

I am usually a happy person. Upbeat, positive. I love life! I am always planning things and looking forward to them and appreciating them.

right now we’re on holiday. I’m still nauseous in my second trimester. I’m not sleeping. The heat makes me feel even more pathetic and exhausted than I usually do. My body is aching from lifting my daughter. I don’t have any interest in excursions or activities and just want to lie down. Husband wants to get a babysitter and go to dinner tonight. I cannot be arsed.

I feel like the most miserable shit who ever lived and so guilty about it. I did choose this, didn’t I?? Why can’t I just make myself have a good time?!?

Me too. I cried all morning. Even though DS slept unit 6am, I was up from 4am(ish) with pregnancy insomnia. Fighting a cough he brought home from nursery, right off the back of Covid which I had for 2 weeks. Probably caught Covid as DS wasn't sleeping the entire week before so immune system was down and before that had hand foot and mouth (yes I did too), probably caught that from hospital as we had multiple A&E trips and hospital appointments due to a freak accident he had at nursery. That went on for 2 weeks.
It's been a hellish 7/8 weeks and relentless. We've barely slept through the night, and cancelled every single plan we had, even a Father's Day lunch I booked.
Working full time is taking its toll and right now I'm considering pulling the trigger 11 weeks before due date.

I’m sorry you’ve been going through that. Being sick in pregnancy is a special kind of hell! What do you mean pulling the trigger- going on leave?

the lack of sleep is the worst isn’t it. It makes every other symptom harder to manage. Is yours caused by anything? Restless leg? Reflux? Or just classic insomnia?

I feel like such a crap mum today. I haven’t organised anything for my DD to do and I can’t even enjoy splashing in the pool with her. Ugh.

Your DD will be having a great time and won't notice I'm sure. Survival mode anything goes is what we say.
Pulling the trigger on mat leave, being you can take it 11 weeks before due date and that's not a million miles away.
I have never had restless leg I don't think, my eyes just ping open and I can't go back. I didn't have this in my last pregnancy.
Hoping a new week will bring us both better days.

You chose it for the outcome of growing your family....not for how you end up feeling whilst pregnant! Please don't beat yourself up, you can be grateful for being pregnant and resent how it's making you feel at the same time. If you need to rest, rest as much as you can. See if anyone can help you pick up any tasks etc. make sure you're putting yourself first as much as possible.