Hi everyone,
Pregnant with my 2nd baby. First pregnancy was awful, suffered horrifically with antenatal and postnatal depression and anxiety. Couldn't stop worrying, had panic attacks daily. It was truly awful. I waited almost 3 years to get pregnant again because I was convinced I wanted to work on myself to ensure it didn't happen again! Which I have done, I have come so far. I've been really relaxed in this pregnancy up to now. But I'm 10 weeks now and I can feel it all creeping in again. I'm terrified, truly terrified. Had a scan a few days ago, went amazing- baby looked amazing. But still can't relax. Just so worried that something is wrong with my baby. Just want to crawl into bed and stay there all day, I feel so horrific on my toddler, I've gone from being the best mum I can be to a shitty mum who just mopes about upset, googling odds of something being wrong.
I don't know what to do, who to tell, who not to tell. But I can't do another 30 weeks of this. Not again 💔