I’ve not hard the best of pregnancies. Lots of sickness and various outside stressors… (unplanned pregnancy) much older sibling.
However, 34 weeks really took a turn for the worst and I feel constantly like I am dreading the future and I’ll never feel myself again. It’s like if I see photos or anything that reminds me of my pre pregnant self, I feel like I’ve died.
i had to change a lot due to the pregnancy so this might be why… but nothing dire.
i have a supportive partner and parents but i I am just Crippled with anxiety and sadness about what’s to come and so worried I’ll sink into PPD. I also have intrusive thoughts which I just ignore but aren’t nice.
i am on the waiting list for therapy but I haven’t even had an assessment yet so I think it’ll be a white until I can talk to someone:
I am wondering if anyone had any experience of feeling this way and did it get better when baby came ?
I want nothing more to enjoy this baby but every time I think about him, I think how I’ll be depriving my other child from attention, money, resources that she very much needs. And I feel extremely guilty for both and the worst mother to walk the planet.
I feel pathetic and hopeless and I am so angry at myself for not foreseeing the impact this pregnancy would have on me and the family. I hate to say it but I feel like I’ve made a huge mistake. I feel awful to write that… and love my my baby but feel an absolute crap mum. And j am so worried my mental health will take a nose dive as it’s already so fragile… I just want my children to be happy and loved and they need a well adjustment mum for that to happen. I only have two weeks to go u til my C section.
Thanks in advance