Currently nearly 28 weeks pregnant with a very healthy and moving baby. My 12 and 20 week scans look healthy and have a growth scan in a week. But for some reason I can't shake the fear she won't survive and won't be born.
My first pregnancy was very dramatic. Found out late as believed we were infertile then found out it was twins, lost a twin, hospitalised after discovering I'm a T1 diabetic and being borderline ketodonic. Birth at 34 weeks though she was very healthy and no nicu time.
I also had a chemical in the month before we conceived this one. Believed to be due to my short luteal phase and was given progesterone this time and conceived easily. Though my initial HCG pull was the low end of normal my second one had massively increased. The pregnancy has been super healthy and she's passed the additional scans etc due to the diabetes and previous prem birth with flying colours.
Yet I can't just shake the feeling she wasn't meant to be. I'm now getting very attached and worried that at the scan next week something will be wrong and she won't survive.
It's not ppd as it's not interfering with my life or my work or my sleep etc but I just can't shake it. It feels like this has been too smooth and waiting for the other shoe to drop.
What can I do to feel more positive?