Worry

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I saw lil baby at 10 weeks 3 days at a private scan, saw heart beat and she put me dead on 10 weeks 3 days.

I have my first NHS scan next week when I will be 13 weeks and I’m so nervous. I can’t stop googling EVERYTHING. I need to chuck my phone in the bloody bin. I don’t really have insane symptoms just cramping and constipation so I’m constantly worried. I suffer with bad anxiety and was told by my GP that I needed to come off my medication which midwife has told me he should have never done that and my medication is safe enough to take and loads of woman take it in pregnancy.
(Gonna book an appointment and speak about going back on them!!)

What can I do to think positively?

This may not help, because I know how much anxiety can take over your thoughts no matter how rational you try to be!

But when I was pregnant (after an mc, so was very anxious), I found peace in accepting that I couldn't do anything about whether the pregnancy worked out or not. (within reason!). If things were going to go wrong, that would be decided already with how the embryo was developing and worrying about it wasn't going to make any difference.
I found that helped a bit. I deliberately refused to Google anything because I knew it would just feed my worrying.

Just for some reassurance as well, not having many symptoms is perfectly normal, lots of people don't. And having seen a healthy heartbeat at 10 weeks is a really positive sign.

Thank you so much for your reply! I always think of the worst in everything and need to stop. Things happen and like you say it’s out of our control and I tell myself that but then I back track😖