I just feel like I need to have a rant as I'm so fed up already! I recognise I may be a bit unreasonable but I haven't had proper sleep in 3 days and am beyond exhausted.
I went to the hospital on Saturday at 37+1 to have my labor induction process started. Was admitted and examined, and turned out I was 1cm dialeted already which I found really positive. I was still given the pessary, and was told we'd have a look again in 6 hours to see where we're at. 6 hours later I had a cervical exam and the midwife couldn't even reach my cervix to see but I was having contractions so they couldn't give me another gel to try to speed it up. I had a night full of awful contractions, so didn't really get much sleep as the pain relief didn't quite help. Next examination was at 10am next morning, and it turned out I dialeted to 2cms which I again found really positive, and the midwife said I didn't need another one, and now we just need to wait for the delivery suite to call me. By the evening, no news re delivery suite, so I enquired with the midwives to ask if I could actually go back home and wait for the car from delivery suite, as the hospital is not great for getting that oxytocin flowing. They both seemed to be very on board and told me to hold on for an hour as this is when shift change happens and they'll have a better view of when the delivery suite is likely to call me. 2 hours later still had no one tell me if I'm okay to go, so I went and asked the new midwife if she knew anything. After a while she came in and said that the consultant on the delivery ward doesn't want me to go, as I'm high on priority list on the delivery suit and they'll call me at some point that night. As you can imagine, that didn't happen. I called the midwife in the morning (after another pretty restless night) to ask if there was any news, and she said that they called to say they apologised but this morning more staff was coming in so they'll call me at some point this morning. Again, nothing happened. I was just so fed up, so I again asked to go home because it's really not doing me any good staying at that hospital, not being able to get any rest, and just think home environment would do me so much better. The consultant said no. He let me go home for a few hours but I need to go back in for the night. I honestly feel like crying and am just so fed up with it already!!!