Unsure about pregnancy

[KPSW3]

Hi All, I realise this might be perceived in different ways but would appreciate any insight or advice. Basically, I found out that I was pregnant with my first in January. It was completely unexpected (had only been with my partner for 9-10 months at the time and yet to meet each other's families etc) and in the beginning I think I was just in shock. Since then I have gone between not wanting to be pregnant or have this baby to wanting it, and back. My partner has been supportive but I can tell my indecision is wearing him down. It's like my maternal instinct is competing against my rational thought - I have always been very independent, focused on my career, appreciating and making the most of my freedom through living and working abroad etc. And now it feels like I am at a fork in the road between choosing my partner and "family" life (which I have generally always avoided/not wanted a "conventional" life). Whereas this is exactly what my partner wants. I'm so scared of going through with this and realising I didn't ever want to be a Mum. Any insight would be appreciated.

Not exactly the same but I have recently had to make a difficult decision on whether to go ahead with a pregnancy.
My doctor advised me to sit down and rationally make a list of pros and cons of each option. For me that was super helpful and allowed me to take the emotion out of the decision and think very practically about it.
For me, this helped me realize that all the things I was concerned about were temporary (second baby), and all the positives were more long term (we went ahead). Good luck. It's really tricky - try not to have any regrets!

@waster86 thank you! I am glad you were able to figure things out and wish you all the best : )