D&C in an hour, absolutely terrified & devastated. Any words of encouragement please x

[aimeeeleanor]

I am in for a D&C in less than an hour to remove my twins. I am absolutely beside myself. Scared, devastated, it just feels so unnatural. God how my heart breaks for every single woman who has had to endure this pain. It is truly shattering

Any words of encouragement or advice please? I can’t stop shaking. I just want my babies

hi @Sweetpea1532 thanks for checking in. I’m so incredibly sorry for the loss of your beautiful Michael. I’ll never understand why these horrific things have to happen, it’s cruel beyond words

The experience in hospital couldn’t have been calmer - for what was happening I mean. Staff all absolutely lovely and so so kind. I’ve not really felt any pain other than period cramping and the bleeding isn’t severe either

It almost feels like nothing has happened and I don’t know how I feel about it. I think because we have gone from being told no heartbeats, to D&C in literally 24 hours that I’m in shock. I almost feel as if I’m having an out of body experience and I can’t quite process what’s happened. I haven’t cried much, I’m just numb

I think I’m going to have to prepare for a crash of emotions soon. Because my body has been forced to let go when it clearly didn’t want to, maybe I’m still finding it hard to register that they’re gone. I don’t know

does all this even make sense? No idea

x

Oh@aimeeeleanor you've put into words how I still feel after all these years...since the D&C is done under anesthesia, I think it is hard for us to wrap our heads around it because we didn't see anything happen. Like you said, it doesn't register.
I'm glad the staff was kind...they have a special gift to be able to make a devastating situation a tad bit better.
Thank you for your condolences for our Michael. I like to think of him being cuddled in my father's arms up in Heaven.
Take care and know you're being thought of.

I'm so incredibly sorry this is happening to you. Sending you so much love X

How are you today?
I remember feeling so empty, they also punctured my lung during the surgery so the focus of the operation shifted and I felt that what I had been through had just been forgotten about.
Allow yourself time to feel every kind of way, it's not easy at all and is not something you can rush through or push to the side.

I know your probably not looking to much into the future but just for some hope, my next pregnancy was successful