Currently 17 weeks.
Long story short, long infertility journey, ivf, Miscarriages ect
I've had a constant fear every time I've had a scan to be honest, I've had scans at 7 weeks, 10, 13, 15
Now I'm extremely paranoid that something really has happened this time.
I've ate terribly due to feeling so terrible. pure junk, lack of exercise as my last ivf round was so rough, and lifted a really heavy bag up last week and tool pain and I'm stressed out and angry all the time. I got so stressed out over a neighbour issue that I started chucking stuff across the room. Pregnancy has brought out the worst in me. I keep thinking how can my baby be OK. I'm of an older age , hormone disorder and have had so much severe cramping this pregnancy.
I have my big anomaly scan in 2 weeks and I'm convinced baby won't have a heartbeat or something will be wrong.
Othe half dosent want me doing another private scan as we've had so many already. I think he's read some fear articles about defects ect from heat in scans. I feel like im going to go mental having to wait 2 weeks. I just wish i could feel something or see a bump. I feel like is baby not growing as I'm not getting a bump. Baby was 5 days behind at 13 week scan. They didn't measure at 15. Only a quick scan due to cramping.
I keep reading so many comments from women who had missed miscarriages and I know odds are low but somebody has to be those odds.
Has anyone felt the same ? Really in need of a handhold. I'm putting so much pressure on myself for this to work out as I feel like we might not get this chance again to have a child.
It's OK if you tell me I'm being mental. I'm already aware , and so is other half of how crazy I've become.