I know this has probably been asked hundreds of times, I am just going out of my mind.
back story: lost my daughter at 24 weeks 5 days in march due to TFMR, fell pregnant again in May and baby stopped growing at around 8 weeks. Both have been very traumatic (first was lots of testing and second wasn’t planned and had to go in for a procedure as medication didn’t work).
Fast forward to today and I’m 6 weeks pregnant tomorrow. We have early assurance scan on the 25th Jan. Again baby wasn’t planned, we only had sex once. Yesterday whilst out shopping I felt a gush and thought I was bleeding so popped to the loo and I was. It was heavy enough that I needed a couple of wipes to get it of the blood, but it wasn’t heavy if that makes sense. Went to the toilet when we got home and there was a few bit of blood which I presume were remains of the earlier bleed. Yesterday I did feel a slight discomfort around the stomach area but it might be trapped wind.
Since then no further bleeding however I do feel really ill with lower back pain and a sore throat. I also feel really sick. Last night my legs felt like I’d done a hike up a mountain.
the bereavement midwife has managed to bring out assurance scan forward to this Wednesday which is great, but it’s still three days of stress and anxiety.
I don’t really know why I’m posting this as I kind of know all I need to know. I just need to get it off my chest. None of my family know I’m pregnant (they weren’t great with previous pregnancies) and only the partners sister and parents know (we had to tell them as we were there for new year and couldn’t drink).
really hoping all is ok but honestly, I think we’re both accepting that the worst has probably happened.