I'm a horrible mum! (Gender)

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Hi - prepared to be told I'm awful but need to vent somewhere.

Currently pregnant with second child. First son will be around 5 when baby is born and this has come after years of secondary infertility and miscarriages.

Which is why I am so perplexed that I'm so anxious about the gender, and presuming I'm going to be upset if I find out it's another boy?!

Honestly makes no sense to me why I'm having these feelings. I adore being a boy mum and everything that comes along with it, and another boy would fit so easily into our life/I love the thought of two boys being best buds when they're older.

I guess I'm just hoping that when we have gender scan which we are likely to do again, if I find out it's a boy I'll be delighted and won't think about the no girl? Is it just because it's currently unknown?

Keep panicking that I'll cry and DH won't understand why, and keep looking at girls clothes longingly...

Has anyone got any experiences of feeling like this, and if so does it all go away the minute you find out either way?

Sorry! And thank you.

It's sex not gender. Language is important

If you'd asked me when I was pregnant with dd I'd have said I wanted a second son. It wasn't a huge preference but it was there. I was pretty sure she was a girl so I wasn't surprised when I found out at 20 weeks. But it was stil unsettling. I knew I'd probably only have this baby and not get tgst second wee boy. I sort of had to mourn it. But I readjusted and honestly I don't even think of it any more. It will pass but it's ok to feel it.

Don't assume your boys will be " best buds". By the time mine were teens they couldn't stand each other.
As grown men nearing 30 they tolerate each other at family gatherings but really don't get on. Chalk and cheese.

@BeingATwatItsABingThing have a look on Vinted for clothes for your DS. I get most of my sons wardrobe on there and 95% unisex but based on the high street, I'm sure some was originally from the girls isle as lovely bright colours and he's genuinely more fashionable than me. I used to think it was tough to find cute boys clothes now I think they can actually be so much cuter and how he wears them is more important 😃

Thank you. I’ll have a look although I’m a bit funny about second-hand clothes my issue and not environmentally friendly at all!.