I spent 18 months reading Mumsnet when me and my husband and I started TTC.
I spent months heartbroken and in tears. I genuinely convinced myself it'd never happen for us.
About 10 months in, we had private fertility testing. This was April 2023. The only "issue" found was with my husband. His motility and morphology were very low, and he counted high. Consultant said to come back in 4 months and take Impryl. We thought it wouldn't make much of a difference.
Went back in Aug 2023. His motility and morphology were even higher than recommended levels. We couldn't believe it.
Fast forward to 4th Jan 2023, I got a BFP. That was about 15/16 DPO. Didn't test before this for a few reasons:
- I had AF cramps at about 12dpo, and I felt exactly like I was coming on.
- On this day and up until BFP, I had light tan coloured discharge. Exactly the same as what I have before my period. I always wondered if I'd have the same thing and spent months hoping brown discharge was implantation bleeding. I almost didn't believe it was a genuine concept bit that, and the pain happened to me.
- I never ever thought we'd get a positive. I'm still in shock. I was shaking and crying.
- I had some red blood the night before I found out - assumed period was on the way, as always, and it never came- this is when I started getting really suspicious.
I also had very bad nausea at work on the day of my test. I was 2/3 days late at this point but had the on and off brown discharge and period cramps. The nausea made me by a test.
I am now 5 weeks, so I'm super early. Hopefully, everything will go well.
My husband and I had never concieved before, so we didn't even know if it was possible.
But I hope this helps someone. I wish I had relaxed more and knew it would happen. It devastated me every month.
Funnily enough, it was the one month I'd run out of cheap Internet tests so didn't do any early testing.
I am 30, husband 34 by the way. Trying since June 2022.
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