Strange feelings after getting a positive after 2 years

[Rubyred88]

So new years eve I took a pregnancy test as I was due on on Christmas day but was late. Over the last two years my cycles have gone from 24 days to 36 days. Always testing negative.

I was assuming this one was going to be negative too and holy smokes 2 lines appear within 30 seconds. I sat there on the loo for the full 5 mins thinking don't get your hopes up thinking it's just the evap line. But nope strong and red. Showed my husband he asked me to take another and buy time I got to him it was 2 glorious line.

But I'm confused with my feelings I've always wanted to be a mum and been excited about it but now it's actually happening I'm scared, like I really can't get in my head that I'm nearly 6 weeks pregnant.

Is this normal feeling. This is the first time ever having a positive. And full of doubt will I be a good mum.

Sorry I'm full of feelings and don't know where to say, as we're not telling anyone until my first ultrasound on the 26th of February and that feels so long away.

Please tell me I'm not alone

Congratulations. I'm sure you and your husband are thrilled. Pregnancy brings feelings and hormones we didn't know even existed. Yes you wished and hoped for a positive result but when you see those two lines you start to panic. My advice is slow down. Stop planning your and babies life, try and enjoy these moments when just you and dh know your secret. Try to relax. You will be a great mum because this baby is wanted and will be loved.

Aww thank you @Nutsabouttopic

Pregnancy is mad and exciting. Of course you feel crazy but it doesn't really mean anything.

Good luck and congratulations x

Congratulations! I took a long time to conceive as well (not helped by the pandemic stopping me from being able to get my coil removed so we could start trying). I actually found out I was pregnant the day of my fertility clinic appointment 😆😅.

I think it’s normal to have those feelings. It’s such a massive change and there’s a lot to process. For me it has helped to focus on each immediate stage as thinking about everything all at once is too overwhelming. I still have moments where I wonder did I make the right choice to have a kid - I think I did but it’s still scary at times.

I held off telling most people until first ultrasound too but it was hard as i had bad morning sickness and had to cancel a lot of plans - if you need to maybe confide in a friend you trust to keep a secret so you can chat through things. I did this and it helped a lot. I think having someone who wasn’t my partner to talk to helped a lot.

Good luck with your journey.

It was similar for me, at least. We tried for 4 years, 3 rounds of ivf, 7 transferred embryos, I desperately wanted a family. I’m now 20 weeks pregnant and if I’m honest it’s still not really sunk in. I feel quite guilty about feeling like this really, but fear is my overwhelming feeling still to this day. I’m still worried about if I’ve made the right choice, and I’m worried about how stressful my life will become. I’m just hoping that once the baby is here that I’m more accepting and get on with our new life instead of missing the old one.

Hi OP and huge congratulations! What a lovely start to the new year! I could have written your post with my first pregnancy. I seemed to go into shock if I'm honest. I woke up the next morning feeling that sickly feeling of dread in your tummy. I googled it, why wasn't I excited?! I'd wanted a baby for so long, we'd been trying.

I stumbled across a Mumsnet thread that resonated with me and basically said that actively trying and hoping for a baby is very different to actually falling pregnant.
It's a huge overload of new emotions, and let's be honest - fear. Fear of the unknown. Your health. Baby's health. Financial aspect. It all seems very real very suddenly! But I assure you it will pass, mine did and I went on to bloody love being pregnant!

Huge congrats again. All the best for your pregnancy x