Don’t want this baby or is it my mental health?

[amberu97]

I have dealt with mental health for a number of years, anxiety, depression and also death anxiety. I’m too aware of my own consciousness and I’m terrified of new beginnings.

I am currently 7 weeks pregnant and I’ve been nothing but anxious, crying and thinking I don’t want this baby at all.

I have a phone call with my doctors today and midwife appointment this weekend. It’s breaking my heart because before my mental health I was excited to have a baby but now I couldn’t think of anything worse and I’m hating myself for it.

Did anyone else feel like this? First time pregnant and had no positive thoughts about it? I do have PCOS and didn’t think this was possible and also agreed with my other half we wouldn’t have a baby…

He’s happy but I’m not. I just don’t know what to do.💔

Sorry you're feeling this way OP. I didn't want to read and run but haven't had much direct experience of this, only wanted to tell you that anxious thoughts and worries surrounding pregnancy is a completely normal thing. Every time I've found out I'm pregnant (all planned) I've always had a wobble upon finding out where I get feelings of 'omg what have I done'.

Definitely mention this to your midwife when you see them. It's important they know you feel this way and they can help you with next steps whatever you choose for those to be. They should be able to refer you to further specialist support too for ongoing management of your mental health while pregnant. I was so bad anxiety wise when pregnant with DS I self referred to my local trusts healthy minds service and it helped me so much I honestly can't recommend it enough.

Just know that you have options, and you have people who will support you along the way. I hope you feel better soon ❤️

I definitely felt like this. Much wanted baby. I think I felt like this from around 7-11 weeks. Definitely hormones effecting my mental health. I tried to remember how wanted the baby was and how happy I was when I was initially pregnant to rationalise my thoughts until they subsided (which they did)!