Hello! I just found out I am pregnant after a MMC. I am just sharing my story here because I have the obvious fear of a CP or another MC, and I have decided not to tell DH until a bit later, but need to share the news with someone!
I got pregnant in late June 2023, and had medical management of a MMC in late August. The MMC was quite traumatic, several bleeds leading to scans, finding out the gestational sac was measuring small after seeing a heartbeat, and basically waiting to miscarry after the heartbeat went, until finally having medical management. All of this was while we were abroad, with family, who we couldn't hide this from. I decided to take it all as a medical issue, but honestly struggled to do so and felt deeply depressed for a couple of weeks. Therapy helped 🙂
Having test negative on a Boots pregnancy test strip (the cheap ones) after the MC, plus a scan at EPU confirming all the pregnancy had gone, I then a few weeks later (just before my first AF came) tested positive on the 'early' tests which caused heartache and confusion. The tests gradually got back to negative, and AF came. I have quite a few pregnant friends and colleagues around me, and I found it very difficult as I was wondering 'why them and not me' - which I fully realise is not a nice sentiment, but that's where I was.
I have just found out I am pregnant again, having had my first AF in early October. I am feeling happy or perhaps I should say at peace. For DD1 and the 2nd pregnancy I was all over the place when I found out about pregnancy! Now I know I want it, I know what to expect and what the journey (including its risks) is.
For several reasons unrelated to me, DH is going through a very stressful time at work and with his side of the family. I have decided to wait until a couple of big milestones (coming up this month) are over to tell him about this pregnancy. Hoping I can get to the end of November, to then tell him. So I am just here sharing because I need to tell someone!
The lines on Clearblue and Boots early testing are still quite faint. I don't know exactly when I ovulated as I only had one AF after the MMC, 5 weeks after I passed the pregnancy, so I am not entirely sure what my cycle is like. I could be just 4 weeks. It is obviously a bit scary, the idea of a CP or another MC/MMC, and after the past few months I have a hard time believing it! The digital tests are both certain I am pregnant, though, and I've even taken a photo just to remind myself of what they say - attached!
I want to avoid line tracking because I think it will be very stressful, and because I hope to avoid getting too emotionally involved until I am reassured (although I wouldn't get there until the 12-week scan). So I guess I should try and make a commitment to not test again until, say, next Thursday to see where I'm at, if AF hasn't come in the meantime...
Sorry this is just a dump of my story, and there's no real question. I'm just glad Mumsnet is around so I can share!