I am absolutely desperate. 2 months ago my husband died in a car accident. I fell into a severe depression. I drank every day, smoked a lot (thc), took tranquilizers and also cocaine. I treated myself self-destructively. Last week I found out I was 11 weeks pregnant. Why didn't I find out sooner? Because I was told I couldn't have children because of the operation when I was a teenager. Then, a month ago, I had a "menstrual bleed" which I now know was a spontaneous bleed. Later, because of the accident, I didn't even think about pregnancy, I cried from morning till night. Last week, however, I started to think that I hadn't had a menstruation for a month and took a test. I immediately called my gynaecologist, who ordered me to have all the tests and an ultrasound, because it was the 11th week. The blood test, urine test and ultrasound showed that everything was fine with the baby. I think that I have been a wreck myself these last three months, when I have been so nasty to myself. I read everywhere that the most critical period for organ damage etc. is 3 months. Because that is when the organs are done. But I myself smoked a box a day, drank a bottle of wine, smoked marijuhana, took coke 10 times, ate tranquillisers... In a way I wanted to kill myself. Now that I know I am carrying a miracle, a part of my husband, I want to live. But this child will never be norm
What if all his organs are unhealed? What if he has mental problems? Is there a story of someone abusing drugs and alcohol in the first 3 months and the child is normal? I would give anything for him to be healthy. I will not be able to do anything more. I am so desperate.