Hi Ladies,
I didnt want to bring a "downer" to the due date thread, so thought I would do my own.
Abit of background first ... Hubby & I had talked about TTC for well over a year given that our current 3 were all getting older and did we really want to go back to the baby days and all the changes a new baby would bring to our family setup.
Fast forward to July and I have the implant remove, and fall pregnant first cycle - a huge shock for both of us as we honestly thought we would have to wait months like previous pregnancies.
I have continued to feel very up and down emotionally, this pregnancy seems alot harder than previously, sickness, tiredness, issues with my asthma etc.
Fast forward to last week, I had my booking in appointment. We get there, and are told she was running late, no problem these things happen ... an hour later, I ask if they knew roughly when I would be seen (more due to childcare / other children than anything else), the lady didnt know but would go and find out ... comes back and says the midwife had forgotten about my appointment and had left to start home visits.
Eventually another midwife agrees to do my appointment and so we go in and the first thing she asks is how I feel about the pregnancy, I state I'm happy but currently spend alot of my time worrying about how things are going to change and a sense of mum guilt, is this whats best for our family. She then says perhaps we should end the appointment untill I know if I want to terminate the pregnancy.
My husband says thats not what I was getting at and to please continue the appointment - which she duly did but at every turn I felt like she was having a dig / questioning my answers etc (I appreciate that my hormones may be blowing this way out of proportion but even hubby was rather annoyed). She mentioned she books in the scan but the appointment felt rushed and to be honest I just wanted to get home, I completely forgot to ask her about scans - I do have my next midwife appointment date.
Do most people receive their scan dates by letter (We see midwife at the local community hospital but have to go to the main hospital for scans etc) or do I need to phone up and ask?
I'm terrified of having to speak to her again if I'm honest!
Sorry its so long and thanks for letting me ramble on!