Crazy anxiety and emotion

[Rachael223]

Hi all
a week ago found out I was 4 weeks pregnant.
We planned to try in the new year as I’ve just started a new job but contraception failed and I’m now pregnant sooner than planned.
I spent the whole of last week crying, extremely anxious and thinking I’d made a terrible mistake, that there’s no way I can do this, that now it’s happened I’d changed my mind and I wanted it to all go away. I have such a supportive partner and he’s been helping me a lot, I have always struggled with anxiety and overthinking, ruminating, scared of change etc. I’ve been hating myself as i don’t understand why I’ve started thinking these things.

yesterday for some reason I felt really calm and the thoughts and anxiety died down.
My boobs were really big and sore but they’ve now gone back to normal and I had quite bad acne (which I struggle with a lot) that within a day has cleared up a lot.
I guess I am just confused, could this mean something has gone wrong? My mind is all over the place and I’m trying so hard to concentrate at work but finding it really tough.

I just wanted to get my thoughts out, although my partner is really supportive, It would be great to hear from people that have been through pregnancy and everything that comes with it!

I had the most horrendous anxiety in pregnancy. It was truly awful.
in terms of symptoms and if that related to things “going wrong”, there is just no way to tell. At this point in pregnancy, what will be will be.
the best thing you can do for yourself and baby is invest in yourself. Actively work on calming/stress reduction. What makes you feel good? A bath? Plan time to have one everyday. A walk?
I really found some grounding phrase (I am safe.. this will pass, for me) helped in the moment of sheer panic.
I am not going to lie and say it was plain sailing, but work on the things you can control. I am happily a mum now, and wouldn’t change my daughter for the world- but it was a hard road to get here.

@Diddleflop - condoms after coming off the pill. We’ve been together 9 years, very stable!

@Cantchooseaname
Thank you for sharing your experience. I am really sorry you dealt with bad anxiety through your pregnancy.
Thanks for your suggestions, yes I love baths and walks, I will make an effort to do more of that.
I suppose I just feel very strange. I feel normal when I’m not thinking about it but when I do think about it I get myself in a state.
It’s obviously not nice to know other people struggle but it is good to know I am not alone!