I’m really struggling with this ocd. I’ve never been like this before and I don’t know when it got so bad but I can’t stand it tonight’s events have been the following:
Partner put his plate on coffee table which had specks of cat litter which he had wiped down before hand but I’ve asked him time and time again not to do this, he then goes on to out the plate in the washing bowl which has now made me want to throw everything away, he lied and said he didn’t do it but did he did and all I can think about is the fact tomorrow I’ll have to go out to buy brand new cutlery etc. then to top it off this evening he put his mobile phone behind the toilet on the tank bit whilst he was peeing, he will bring the same phone into bed covered in yodnknws what and all that’ll happen is I’ll lay here thinking about any germs harming me and the baby. I think it’s all escalated knowing the baby will be here soon and I just want him to be safe and sound. I can’t continue doing what I’m doing but I’m not getting help for this. I shower after I cook in case I got some food in my hair, after I clean, just in case. Are there any books or something that can be recommended? I boil wash dishes and bedding out of fear of germs being left behind. Any fellow perinatal ocd sufferers?