How do you know if you have pnd

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I am struggling atm, only really just admitted it to myself after a row with dh over something stupid.
I am 18.3 weeks pregnant and I have two kids, one of who is 1 soon. I had bad anxiety in my last pregnancy, it was hard because we struggled to conceive my dd and went through alot of pain over the years to get there, when it finally happened naturally out of the blue. So I was extremely anxious the whole way through.
I have found myself unexpectedly pregnant and to be honest i haven't felt right. I was worried form the start I wouldn't be able to cope with 2 under 2 but I know I did and still do want this baby.

But something feels different, I haven't worried about the baby once like I did in my last pregnancy. I forget I'm pregnant !! I just feel disconnected, like there is nothing there. I'm so worried for my mental health

I also feel fed up most days, I love my kids more than anything and they make me so happy, but I just feel flat, like everyday is the same, I'm tired all the time, I'm bored, and I'm worrying about having another one and struggling with it all

Or maybe it is perinatal depression. I don't know, I know I just feel serious alot of the time, like my sense of humour has gone

Definitely speak to your midwife. It’s very normal to have worries about how you will cope, I’m currently feeling the same about my third, even though I know they will just fit right in like they were never not there. I’ve also felt more disconnected this time but again I think that’s normal when you’re running around after a little one already, you just don’t have time or energy to think about much else.

But it’s worth talking things through with your midwife so that they can put any extra support in place if it is needed. Make sure you are making time for yourself, even just an hour to get in the bath or do something you enjoy. It’s so easy to lose yourself when you become a mother.