Planned pregnancy but utterly shocked and in tears

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We literally started trying for baby #2 and pregnancy test came positive within 2 weeks of trying. Our DC is nearly 2 and the baby would be born when DC 1 is 2.5 years old.
We are utterly shocked and I am in tears after the test result. I don't know why I feel this way.
A few things are it took us 4 months to conceive our first DC. Also, our DC still feels very young and we are worried that it's unfair on him. Also, I got covid in the week 3 of pregnancy when pregnancy test came back negative and I took some ibuprofen and lemsip and I totally feel like a fool and incompetent person already despite this being my second pregnancy.
I am feeling shame and guilt that I feel this way. Can someone please let me know

This is really very normal. With your second you know what is coming so there is more of a "what on earth have we done" moment. But your son isn't tiny and his sibling will bring more fun than jealousy.

Thank you so much @EggBoxed to take the time to respond 🙏
I have literally been in tears since morning. I thought I will be so delighted when this happens but I am still in disbelief and struggling to accept it that it's happening so soon. I truly understand that it's such a blessing especially since I am 34 now. I don't want to keep delaying it as I am aware of the fertility drop after 35, but I don't know what to do and how to manage my feelings.

At one point I even thought about aborting as an option as I am so overwhelmed but I feel this baby was always planned and I want to complete and make us a family of 4.
There would be no point of not having this baby and trying for another at 36.

Oh my gosh, same. We tried for number 2 and I got pregnant in the first month. I was shocked and spent the day crying. I’m 13 weeks now and have been fine ever since. a mix of happy and a bit “oh god why am I doing this again.”

That's a lovely age gap!

My first was 2.3 when my second was born, and the day we brought him home the eldest was showing him her toys and wanted him to play with her. It's one of my favourite memories.

It feels a lot, but your second will come with a big bag of love, just like your first did. You're not dividing up the love, it multiplies all by itself.

Our son will be 5 when second arrives.I felt these emotions too! 16 weeks now & getting excited & son is feeling involved. It could be the thought of lack of one on one time & divided attention but sure they’ll love having a sibling in time!

@LetMeEnfoldYou thanks for taking the time to reply 🙏 I really loved the lines about multiplied love. We will have a new family member as well as a sibling for our child.

Hello lovely, hope you're okay.

I tested positive this morning, 2nd baby (much wanted) and first cycle so we also only started trying 2/3 weeks ago. I have a 3 year old who we adore.

I have been crying all morning!! I just feel so sad that life is going to change dramatically for the 3 of us. We've finally got to a point where things are settled and I'm scared that everything will change. I just love my little boy so much and can't imagine another!

I feel so guilty for feeling this way - we really do want a 2nd child

I was definitely in a state of shock/ denial when I got pregnant with my 2nd. Like you it was planned but happened very quickly!

I found the newborn period very difficult with my 1st (very high needs baby) and life has got much easier in the last few months so I am apprehensive about going back to newborn land again…

I’m 21 weeks now and starting to get a bit more positive/ excited about it now though.

I felt this way. It took 5 mc and 2 years to conceive my third, this one 6 weeks! I felt very shocked for ages and kept thinking something will go wrong, I’ll miscarry etc

Our LO will be 2 years (just under) when baby arrives. I’m still quite shocked at I’m 22 weeks now

@DiaryOfaTTCer thanks for sharing your feelings. I think I am too scared of thinking the same that our lives will change so much. But, I think our lives will change anyways even with just our only DC growing up and we will go through stages and phases. I spoke to some of my friends who have children and they did reassure me that the love and fun multiplies. Our DC will get a companion hopefully for life and a bond which will stay even when we as parents aren't there.
Sending you hugs and congratulations on your pregnancy 🎉

@DuploTrain Congratulations on your pregnancy 💐
I hope this baby brings your family lots of joy and easier parenting this time 💝
I hope I feel more settled and excited soon!
Sending you best wishes 🙏

@Redpanda21 Congratulations on your pregnancy 💐
Glad eventually it worked out well for you. I feel anxious as well. That makes it harder.
Sending you best wishes and hope things work out well for you 💞

I wasn't aware it's such a common feeling even with a planned baby. My first one took almost 4 months which I remember did made me quite frustrated at that time. This time round we were not in any hurry and I totally accept it that it's such a blessing but now the reality is setting in of the logistics involved with bringing up another child.

Please don't be distressed. It's an excellent age gap IME. They both still nap in the afternoons, and dc1 gets 1 to 1 time during dc2's other naps. They are both still in nappies, so you don't get "Need weewee!" just as you settle down to a feed. They both enjoy cuddles and are relatively uncomplicated. I used to have dc1 on my lap while reading to him, so, when I was pg with dc2, I got him used to sitting next to me, holding the book on a cushion on his lap. Then when I was breastfeeding dc2 I could still read to dc1 without anything having changed for him.

We got a buggy board for dc1, and kept a sling for dc2 in the buggy so that dc1 could ride in the buggy if he was too tired to walk. Tended only to happen if we were out for dinner.

Not denying the first 6m will be knackering. But the first 6m is knackering no matter the age gaps. Having 4y and 6y age gaps were worse than the 2y age gap, as the older dd needed to be places in time, like school. Not a problem with a 2y age gap.

As for the ibuprofen, again, please don't let it distress you. Unless you OD'd, it is highly unlikely that you have harmed your baby. It is so, so common for women to take OTC meds or drink alcohol before they know that they are pregnant, and the babies are absolutely fine.

@Aparecium appreciate your kindness and helpful suggestions. I agree about the age gap. With more age gap, there is definitely disruption to the elder child's routines. I am hoping that I feel more settled with the news soon 😁

Don't worry about the ibuprofen and lemsip. Assuming you just took them once or twice should be fine. Congrats, you'll grow into the idea of it all over time!

This is so normal OP. I remember initial elation when I found out I was having my second. Really swiftly followed by full on sobbing when I thought about DS1 and it wouldn't be just the two of us any more. This is donkeys years ago but your post brought it all back. I was stunned at my reaction given it was a planned and much wanted pregnancy.