Sorry for the long message but I feel like I’m loosing my mind.
Almost 5 years ago I had a miscarriage whilst on the pill, I think I missed a few.
After some issues with anxiety and depression I decided to come off contraception purely to feel like I was in control of my mind a little more and honestly it helped. Although using the pull out method makes question if I’m pregnant every 3 months.
It’s become a rolling joke “it’s that time of the year”.
Me and my partner had sex at some point between 4-6th September. I was convinced I already ovulated so didn’t think anything of it. Then I had a dream we had a baby so when I woke up I checked and I was wrong. I ovulated the week we had sex. I’m not sure of exact date but some point between 4-10th September.
I told my partner I was wrong and he didn’t really say a lot, he doesn’t want to get his hopes up because we don’t know. Then 2 days later he pointed out a scan like picture of a baby in the clouds. (I understand that may sound crazy but he doesn’t think about babies too much) the cloud was spot on, literally every detail. I believe in signs so I thought that was one. Then I continued to have baby dreams which doesn’t normally happen and woke up and just went “I’m pregnant” in my head, before I was properly awake.
Anyway… symptoms. So this is the weird part, I have what feels like someone in my stomach pushing it out, I look like I’m 4 months pregnant. I’m so bloated. I’m tired a lot, having headaches, I keep getting little stab feelings that last no longer than a second. My boobs feel sore but only when I’m wearing a bra so I have been sticking to exercise bras at the moment.
when I was pregnant before I didn’t notice any symptoms other than a missed period.
But today my pain is sometimes a period like pain, sometimes a stretching type pain. I don’t normally get period pains until the day before I’m coming on and they come with leg pain.
Normally when I think I’m pregnant I go through mumsnet looking at threads hoping I will find one similar to me with a bfp as the outcome.
I guess I’m writing this in the hope someone will tell me I am but I understand no one will truly know. I’m self employed so trying to stay distracted is so difficult.
My last period started 26th August, I have a 26 day cycle and my next period is due Thursday 21st. I did a test this morning which was negative and have ordered some more to do soon. I’m hoping I can do them before Thursday as I can’t wait 4 days but not sure of the best date to do one.
I don’t really have anyone to talk to about it as I don’t want to get mine or other peoples hopes up.
Thank you for reading.