As awful as the subject sounds it’s even worse to feel. I am currently 15 weeks pregnant with a 21 month old DS. I feel like I am in the depths of despair and cannot shift this feeling of dread/doom/anxiety.
this pregnancy was very much planned. I was absolutely delighted and was in so much fear of miscarrying. I have just in latter weeks had the sense of doom come over me. I am full of fear and feel I have made the wrong choice. I look at my beautiful little boy (whom I won’t lie I had very similar feelings to when pregnant with him) and think: he is more than enough, why would I want to change things, why would I want to disrupt his life etc. I feel I am grieving him and grieving our bond that will be different.
I felt a similar doom when pregnant with him (different reasons, mourning my relationship with my partner, mourning my life, my freedom etc) this passed almost immediately as I fell in love with my little boy and I truly love him more than words can say and can’t believe I was so scared.
will this be similar? Can someone please reassure me… I just feel I am ruining my boys life and our bond will be destroyed . I miss him just thinking of how things will change ☹️☹️