Last weekend Friday night/Saturday morning DP and I had an accident where the condom broke. I took the morning after pill Sunday afternoon. I felt really sick all day Monday which I expected from reading the leaflet. Last week i made an appointment to talk about getting an IUD so it doesn't happen again. I had a tiny bit of spotting last week and today I've woken up and my breasts are really sore.
I know it's too early to tell but I'm having a bit of a quiet panic. I'm over 40, already have a 2 year old, I'm barely coping as it is. I'm the main earner and DP is going through a really tough time with his PTSD. It feels like everything is on me. I'm barely hanging on, I've not recorded my period dates but I suspect I was roughly mid cycle, I'm not taking the vitamins I need for me let alone a baby, I'm drinking, not excessively, but 1-2 bottles of wine a week. I am taking medication for ADHD.
The spotting was less than the implantation bleed I had with DD. But now I'm panicking. I don't think we would cope, but I also don't think I could have a termination and even if I could bring myself to do it I don't think I could tell DP right now, but couldn't keep it a secret.
It's probably too early for a test at the moment and I guess the sore breasts could be PMS and the spotting a reaction to the emergency contraception. But right now I'm panicked and my mind is going here there and everywhere.