Just that really. Looking for a hand hold and a little bit of hope.
Blazing argument with partner and he's packed some stuff and gone. Don't want to drip feed but don't want to go into too much either. Argument started over bread, he will never accept my narrative and I always have to be wrong about what was said and done ... like I ALWAYS remember it wrong. Sometimes I do but not always. He will go on and on until I back down. Anyways ... argument was getting heated he was raising his voice shouting, swearing and calling me names (6 I can recall) so I said something I knew would cut him (I know it's wrong and should know better but sick of the names). He absolutely flipped and I went and sat in the car for a bit.
He's packed some things and said that I would regret it and bouncing about still calling me names. I followed him to the door and asked what he meant by that and I'd rather just know than the threat he just said that I will. I asked when he would be getting his stuff. He said not today I can fuck off. Asked him if he wanted something back that his mum had bought for the baby (owlet) he said he didn't fucking care about it and to keep it. He also said I'm manipulative and he should have stayed away from me.
I think it's been coming for a while. He hasn't been that interested in baby although he always claims he is and I've felt a bit alone during pregnancy. Almost like the experience has been ruined.
I've stopped asking him to do things because I've felt like a burden. I've come to accept that only I can make me happy so the things I've wanted to do like a pre mum spa day etc I've booked to go alone. He's not even so much as arranged to take me out for my tea. I've stopped asking him to come to friends etc because I know he doesn't want to so I don't think it's fair (I always attend functions of his friends). He turned that round saying I don't tell him anything and is it because an ex was going (they're not obviously).
He's mentioned baby's name once. Doesn't really touch my belly but he does ask if baby is kicking etc. I've give up saying when I feel crap because I just honestly feel like a nuisance. If I'm not feeling too good he says I'm in a mood and asks me what's wrong and I try to just say nothing. To be fair to him he has done more cooking and a bit more tidying.
Finances are a bit of a joke and I end up paying for more while trying to save for maternity so maybe that's playing on my mind too.
I don't think he'll be back and I don't think I want him to but I know I'm soft and don't want to back down. He has text me since leaving asking to bag his things.
Just want to know if anyone has found themselves in this position and if they were ok? I have an ok job so I'll manage financially as he doesn't support me financially at all. I'll probably be better off in that respect.
Sorry I've rambled on and I've probably lost interest. Think I just wanted to vent as I'm embarrassed to approach my friends about it if I'm honest. I know I sound like a brat and I'm pregnant not dying and I know people have it worse than me