I feel weird posting this because I haven’t really told anyone, but I’m 14 weeks with my second child and am feeling so different to my first pregnancy. I’m putting it down to the fact that I am more aware of the realities of being a mum, the first 6 months to 1 year of my sons life was so so hard for us! We had breastfeeding issues, colic, we’d just moved countries and my family turned out to be far less present and supportive than they made out they’d be. So initially I was excited to be pregnant again as we have always wanted a few kids, but after going through the nausea and fatigue of trimester one again, I was reminded of last time, along with the postpartum challenges.
We’ve told family and close friends, but I don’t feel excited to share with others. It almost doesn’t feel real, perhaps because I’m so nervous this time and am busy with toddler life (20mo seems to know somethings up), but the belly is growing and I’m feeling it!
I’m nervous this next one will be just as challenging but now I’ll have two to deal with, and I won’t be able to hack it. I’ll just crumble under the load of it all. Plus hubby is working more now so less time at home to help. Anyone have any advice for being a mum of 2 with no support and a very attached toddler? He has never been cared for by anyone except us because he struggles to be away from us, so child care isn’t an option and family doesn’t help. I don’t know what to do 😔