Feeling lost and unsure of pregnancy

[frangracie125]

Mum of 2 - 9 years old and 21 months . I had lovely pregnancies and didn’t feel any type of depression or anxiety. I say lovely pregnancies with my second they thought he had DS after initial tests all was ok , then they thought they saw something on a scan ( more worry) all came back ok to then be told placenta wasn’t working properly so had to have lots of scans and rest. I have just found out I am pregnant again and just feel so upset and feel like I don’t want another baby. Bit of back story before I found out I was pregnant I have been suffering with awful anxiety can’t really pin point what’s caused it ( thinks it’s built up over months) I can’t tell if I’m just suffering a bad case of anxiety or finding out I’m pregnant has made it worse. I’m very early and I’ve told my husband . He is an amazing man and father and keeps telling me I felt this way before being pregnant and I just need to concentrate on being positive and once the shock of been pregnant has settled I’ll feel ok 🥺 we have spoke about having another so it’s not as though I was adamant I wouldn’t ever again. Anyone experienced anything similar. Termination isn’t an option . My husband would be devastated and I know it’s my body but he’s part of me and I couldn’t do that. I’m hoping I start to feel connected to the pregnancy. Thanks for reading x

Sorry things have been so tough OP. What sort of things have you found helpful for managing your anxiety?
Have you spoken to your GP about how you've been feeling?

I have yeah they gave me propranolol and amitriptyline originally I went today and she told me to continue taking it but I have read it can be harmful but she said the state I’m in is worse and need to look after my self too. I don’t even know why I feel the way I do but I felt it before being pregnant just think finding out has added to it. I love my children and couldn’t have better support but I feel nothing for this pregnancy I try to not even think about it!! Xx

Hey hun, cant offer much advice but if you was suffering with your mental health before, your hormones are going to be playing a hugeeeeeee part in making you feel a little or a lot worse right now ❤ I'm sorry your feeling this way. If your planning on continuing with the pregnancy ( I understand your feelings towards maybe not wanting to but going ahead for your husbands sake) please be kind to yours ❤❤❤

This is alot to wrap your head around! When did you find out? How far are you?

If your very very early then theres nothing wrong with putting it to the back of your mind for the time being 🤷‍♀️ try and not pay it much thought have you had counselling? I couldnt take medication it made me feel horrific and I've tried basically everything before being pregnant but counselling worked amazingly for me! It was very emotional at first and I actually disliked it but once I got to know my counselor and getting through the initial what could be causing this bullshit it actually helped massively and the days/weeks following each session I could feel myself getting better and better.

Feel free to PM me if you ever want a chat or rant I'm here I've been where u are with four children on my own without the pregnancy hormones your facing atm though.

Please believe me when I say this.... altho it feel like theres no way of going back to " normal " I can assure you there is I'm here back at my happy place it takes time and being kind to yourself is the best healer, being angry and upset that you cant pin point it or beating yourself up that you " cant just snap out of it" honestly makes the whole process harder and longer.

Gentle hugs xxx