Im having a bad day.
I really don't feel as if I am being argumentative with my husband. I am trying hard not to be. My face might look like "it's been slapped with a wet fish" (husbands favourite description of my moody face) but i'm trying hard not to criticise him or argue. The thing is he seems to have gone slightly mad recently.
Not only has he been emailing a pretty blond girl he had liasons with at university, he also seems to be testing me in every way imaginable. He has announced that he wants to attend an orthodox church where part of the service is in Russian. When I said - perhaps as a comprimise we could go to a normal CoE church on alternate weeks where they sing hymns his response was to say I had started an argument about it and to say "Why do you always try to stop me doing the things I enjoy?"
He has also announced that after 2 months of intensive weight loss he wants to start taking whey powder and "bulk up" again. Last time he did this I distincly remember him being moody and slightly agressive losing his temper easily, also I just dont want him to put on two stones of muscle and end up with a neck bigger than his head.
He also goes Thai Boxing and asked me "will I still be able to go Thai Boxing and enter a competition when the baby is born" when I replied that I wasnt sure he lost his temper and then rang his mum who said "of course you will darling".
Im sure this is a very biased account of things and im sure I am more emotional at the moment. I do feel quite agressive a lot of the time at the moment but I am putting such a lot of effort into trying not to start arguments its unreal. He says I dont like any of his hobbies but its not just that. Admitedly I dont share any of them and I feel they are all rather extreme and attention seeking but I dont want him to stop doing them. I try to comprimise or answer his questions honestly even where I dont agree with what he wants to do but he interprets that as me trying to stop him doing things.
I told him that emailing the pretty blong girl upset me and that he needed to reassure me, he did this by changing his email password so I couldnt read his emails. Reassuring....
How can I work out if it is me being hormonal and argumentative or him having some kind of "trying to hold onto his youth/ trying to keep his freedom/seeing how far he can push me" ie TanTrum!!!