Struggling.

[Ports96]

Hi, I'm not even sure if im writing this in the right topic really; I'm 17 weeks pregnant, have good family and boyfriend who is supportive also. I live alone currently though and am struggling bad with loneliness, and motivation for day to day tasks. I'm under mental health specialists anyway as am diagnosed bpd, adhd and ptsd but I'm scared to say to much as I don't want them to thunk I'm a bad parent before my baby is even here. Its worth adding, I have no friends so am stuck a little in my own bubble. I had a close best friend of 16 years until unfortunately a disagreement we were having came to a head a little over a month ago and we haven't spoken since. Physically I'm doing everything right, I quit smoking as soon as I found out, starting saving more money than I've ever been able to keep in my bank, attended every appointment, got myself into counselling for past trauma as i don't want my past to affect my babies future, even signed back up to start studying accountancy online after taking a break due to personal issues last year. My question is how do I stop feeling so rubbish, I don't think I should feel how I do when i have loving people around me and I'm so lucky to be having so far a healthy pregnancy but I just can't shake this feeling.

Sorry for all the random information think I'm just trying to give a snap shot of my life.

I’m in a very similar situation to you and just want to say you’re absolutely not alone and pregnancy is a very scary and draining thing. Hormones are crazy and sometimes the overwhelming fear of the unknown consumes you, you’re doing great keep going. You’ve done everything you possibly could and it sounds like this will have a really positive impact on you. Here if you need to talk x

@Ports96 sending you hugs as I’m sorry you’re feeling this way. I am no psychologist, but your hormones are likely all over the place and might be bringing a bit of low self esteem to the forefront??

It sounds like you have really good intentions and want all the best things for your baby, make sure you give yourself a break and go easy on yourself.

also it’s rubbish to fall out with a friend, but sign up for some maternity classes/NCT and you might make some really good friends who are all going through the exact same thing.

i hope you feel a little better soon xx

Thanks for replying.. a few people have said the dame about hormones to me and it probably is just that, I keep telling myself the feelings will pass but then they keep coming back.

I definitely do want to do the best my baby and definitely wouldn't have predicted how protective I already feel.

I think with the friend it was one of them things thay was inevitableend.the end. We had outgrown each other alot but couldn't seem to leave each other either and so it became unhealthy. I have definitely looked at classes, just trying to build myself up to go to them.

Thank you so much for taking the time to reply x

Theosmummy

Thank you for replying, it's definitely both nice and sad at the same time yo heat you're in a similar situation.
You've hit the nail on the head with the fear of the unknown, every stage of pregnancy so far has come with its own set of worries. Thank you for your kind words and I might just take you up on the here if you need to talk comment, would be nice to have some one to swap stories with once in a while.🥰 Thank you for responding. X

The world is a scary place, even more so when you’ve got a tiny human that depends on you to keep them safe. You will be just fine, everything will work itself out and honestly any time. Xxx

You’re brave for speaking about how you’re feeling so well done. As others have said hormones heighten every feeling that you can normally handle so cut yourself some slack. You’re doing all the right things for your baby which is wonderful.

There are some apps you might find useful:
Peanut - an app for making friends with pregnant people in your area
Bumble - traditionally a dating app but it has a friends mode where you can meet friends too

There are lots of women in the same boat as you so please don’t feel alone. Use the forums on here to connect and ask questions like you have done xx

Thank you, I wasn't sure whether to post on here or not but am really glad I did. Think hormones definitely have a part to play! Us poor women lol.

I will have a look at those apps, I did think about it before but was unsure,
will definitely be posting more on here in the future, thank you for you reply. ❤️ its good to feel understood and not alone.

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